Random

I have a lot on my mind lately. Here is just some of it.

I am still working 2 jobs. So is Tim. We rarely get to spend time together at home. Alone time with him? I dont think I remember what that is. Its very hard but it's what works for us right now. I pray sometime in the near furture it will not be like this.

It is hard to have a blended family. Don't get me wrong I love our dynamics. When I was little thinking about being a mommy and having a husband, is this what I pictured? Not at all. I want all of the kids at our house more frequently. I realize they have other families that want that as much as I do. So we compromise. That's not the only tough part about it. You get used to being a single mom. You know how to take of everything yourself. When you have someone else there its not always easy to give up that control. This is something Tim and I both struggle with. It's getting better.

Payton is going to be 4 months old tomorrow. I do not want him to outgrow this little baby stage. While I look forward to all of his milestones, I want to hold on to this baby as long as I can. This is the last one. Oh to slow time.

Jaxon had to get glasses. He looks so stinkin cute in them. Makes him look like a grown man. He doesn't stand so close to the tv anymore!

Rena got her hair all cut off last weekend. Her and I love it. She doesn't have to brush it as much and I dont have to complain about her having snarreled hair.

Some days I want to shave my head. I have thick course curly hair. Most days it does what it wants to. If I shave my head, will it grow back differently?

We started putting Payton in the nursery at church. He does not sit through a service with out fussing. He does great in the nursery. I am so scared that he is going to catch something and he wont be able to have his surgery again.

Speaking of surgery its 2 weeks away. I have a peace about it now. I have prayed for him to have a safe surgery and a painless recovery. I trust that God will watch over him and the surgeons that day.

I have lost 3 pounds!!! I want to lose 40 more!

I think thats enough for today.